Getting Back on My Mat

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No matter what it takes.

With everything that has been occurring around me and the changes that have taken place within me, the one that has been affected the most is my yoga practice. I wish I could say it has been a change for the better, but not quite.

For almost four years, I have held a more consistent yoga practice.  I loved to go to the studio and take my classes.  I would practice before and after the classes.  When it was beautiful out, I would take my practice outside, or keep it cozy indoors during the winter.  Even when times where tough (read: I was broke), I would make it a point to always practice in the morning. When I would sleep in at 7 a.m. (yes, that was sleeping in), morning samaskaras still took place.  At least three.

Now I can say my yoga practice is a whole two minutes.  In bed.  I achieve a full childs pose to downward dog, and maybe a few wind release poses.  My meditation is well, nonexistent.  I try… sometimes.  It’s so hard lately!!!

Should I go through my excuses?

  1. I just washed my hair today.
  2. I haven’t been out all day, I’m not leaving my house now.
  3. It’s raining outside.
  4. I’m bloated.
  5. I’m still full from breakfast.
  6. I’m hungry
  7. Maybe tomorrow.
  8. I don’t know/I don’t like this teacher
  9. I overslept.

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Lame.Lame.Lame.  Is that what you read?  I wouldn’t blame you.

These are mostly my excuses for not going to class.  The ones for not actually practicing at all are a bit more lame.

What I need is a “Get it togetha, sista!!”  I am a fucking yogi.  And no, going to class won’t prove that.  But making the effort and actually getting on my mat will.  That’s the best part.  You got on your mat.  You are going to practice YOUR practice.  Take what you learn on your mat, and put it towards everyday life.  BOOM.  Welcome to the life of a yogi.

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I guess this goes with any practice or activity.  To actually do it.  Take that 2 mile run to start.  Get that gym membership.  Try those new work out DVDS that really kick your ass.

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Seriously.  I noticed more than ever, it’s just about getting back on my mat.  I never understood that sitting in class, hearing the teacher state that.  I took my mat out of my trunk after three weeks.  After giving it a good cleaning,  I can’t wait to roll it out in a studio.  Yet, I know it starts home.  So what I really can’t wait for is to wake up at 6am and hopefully by 7am, begin my home yoga practice….  This is ambitious.  Although, even if I wake by 7, I hope to get some sort of meditation practice in.  Baby steps.  It’s only yoga.

It’s the yoga that keeps me active.  It’s the yoga that keeps me humble.  It’s the yoga that keeps me balanced.  It’s the yoga that keeps me motivated to learn.  It will always be my own yoga practice.

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where perfection does not exist <3

 

yesenia

Realizations Mixed with Vanity

Adjusting to your own prosperity ~ Danielle LaPorte

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I thought we can start with this.  I love it.  Because it’s so simple and so true.  Who knows your own prosperity, but yourself?

If you are reading my blog, chances are you are fortunate enough to read, own a phone or computer, and/ are looking for some sort of inspiration or update.  That right there is prosperity.

I can say that the last 7 months of my life have been somewhat life altering.  Whether it is my surroundings, such as the weather or people, to most importantly, myself.

There is no denying I am heaven with the weather.  Give me all the humidity and 95 degree weather everyday.  I’ve never felt so free being tan with my frizzy hair, while wearing minimal simple clothing. It’s amazing being able to dress myself in seven dollar crop tops everyday.

But, what if I told you my short shorts and crop tops gave me another sense of being? Even in the summer, I have always kept a sense of dignity with my clothing.  I haven’t had the all good experiences during the last few months.

As said before, betrayal and disappointment has been part of this, still amazing, time.  I say still, because so much more was figured out.  I’M STILL FUCKING ALIVE!  I may not have the “ideal” life for a 26 year old woman, but I can say have my own life as a 26 year old healthy living, yoga loving, swearing woman.  Have I changed?  Yes and no.

I’m still on this blog I started almost three years ago.  I’m still working, now full-time, at the same job I started almost 5 years ago.  I love my lemon with water and gargle my mouth with coconut oil every morning.  Yet, I am a totally different person at the same time.  I did not have one vegetable today.  My snack consisted of cheese and coffee.  I give more attitude and back talk, then most people would appreciate.  I have my breasts free and more skin showing than I ever had since I was a newborn probably.  I embrace it.  I love it.

Out of everything, I would change a few things.

I want to miss a day of lemon water because I had to sleep out in a different surrounding.  Maybe all the attitude isn’t necessary, no matter what fight I’m fighting, or what point I’m trying to make.  Although, I will say it is therapeutic.  Screw it.  I went from a good girl who looked for the good in everyone, to some bad “bitch” that didn’t mind any kind of attention. Look at my ass, because it will never be yours.  Look at my car, I pay for that.  Listen to me speak, because l’m still educated and alive.

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More has changed in my life than I thought possible.  It maybe what was predicted by the full moon close to new years, and continues to this new moon in my beloved Cancer.  Emotioal, sensitive, loyal, and as fierce as the water that flows through us.

I am still as back and forth as ever before.  But, I know few things for sure.  Stay cautious.  Love truly.  Feel everything.  Embrace your flaws.  Keep the animal within you alive.  You still have so much, so share that prosperity.  Share your soul.  I’ll work on it.  Want to join me?

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Till next time,

yesenia and organic cabernet 

Inspired By…..

Inspiration is something I know to be everywhere.  Even with this knowledge, I still find it’s hard see sometimes, even most of the time…

This is a draft I have had for over a month now.  That first paragraph (of two sentences) is all I got up too.  I decided to keep it as a way of picking up where I left off.  I would usually say start over, start a new, another beginning… blabla lala.  In reality, tomorrow I will still be going to the same job, living in the same predicament, and going to a hot yoga class that I now only attend twice a month.

Although, right now, as I’m typing and writing, I’m pretty fucking excited.

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“Just question if you still love what you once loved” ~ Danielle LaPorte

And so I did just that.  And I realized, I still love so much.  Despite the hardships, betrayals, curveballs, and disappointments, I wanted to say that’s not me.

I still find myself looking at food blogs, pinning beautiful food photography, reading up on the latest health trends, and treat myself to a green juice/smoothie a couple times a week.

I don’t go to yoga class 3 or 4 times a week anymore, but every other day, I still find myself practicing bakasana (crow) out of nowhere.  Then I say to myself I’m practicing savasana when I spend those extra five minutes in bed ;)

Experimenting with my look through hair, make up, and fashion,  It’s something I actually admire in most, and then pretend I’m a bit of a fashionista myself.

I think about writing in this little space of the internet I can call my own.  I say to myself “That would make an awesome topic!” And then, I don’t write anything….

So I am offering myself a change, step by step.  It’s not so much figuring out what it is I want to do with my life, but rather how the hell I’m going to do it.  If anyone will tell you, that’s the real struggle I face.  I couldn’t be more scared and happy to put it out there as I take a journey back.  Yes, I’m moving a backwards to help to move forward.  More yoga, more vegetables, more meditation, less laziness (I shall admit my faults), more writing, cooking, and passion.  I miss my fucking passion.

I’ll admit as well I’m a dreamer, that over the last few months I tried to step away from. But, I think I’m ready to pick it back up.  To pick myself back up.

My love and imperfection.  For all the beautiful souls that I know and do not know.

 

yesenia

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Embracing a Transformational Season

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So Spring is officially here.  I know there has been a mix of weather going on.  Here in the Sunshine State? Well let’s just say I got a bit of a Summer glow already ;)  I know the cold, and even snow, is around for some people, but now is the perfect time to recognize and embrace the small changes!  Longer days, prettier sunsets, and a little more green to come.

I wanted to try and incorporate a post about how to embrace spring in a more holistic healthy view and realistic bad-ass-self way.  So let’s try and do this, shall we?

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Now here is Florida, I must admit it has been Spring for the last month, borderline summer.  I am not complaining, but rather embraced it with open arms.  First and foremost, I definitely been eating way more salads and fresh veggies.  With local fruits and vegetables always in stock from the warmer season, their is really no excuse not to get the most of optimum nutrition from your meals.  In season for your environment is key to staying healthy during the year.  Your body wants the food the earth has naturally provided!

During spring the foods are lighter.  We are talking greens to help detox your body of winters extras still in the system.  How to do it?  Add more juices to your regimen.  You don’t need to go into full detox mode, but rather slowly, your body can get into a transformation on it’s own.  So, not just juices, but fresh greens, even chopped vegetable salads to get the full hydration and nutrition your body deserves going into the warmer months.

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Get active and get out there!!!

Not only will this help your body transformation, but your mind as well.  Join a gym.  Go practice yoga.  Go walking/running.  Make an effort to start your own exercise routine.  To be honest, this is something that I fell back on.  I am more of a foodie than a fitness person.  But I am allowing a little extra and time (and money) to the cause.  Our body needs the sweat to cleanse and get our systems moving again.  Going out and do that gives us that motivation.  What better motivation then seeing others wanting to kick some ass and fat too!

 

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Now, when I say get out there, I say that because usually the winter months gives us the perfect excuse to stay home more, eat a little hardier, and just get cozy with close family and friends.  I’ve been using this gorgeous weather in Florida to never stay home.  Semi amazing- semi dangerous.  But, moving on.  I love the fact that I can explore this state with the advantage of amazing weather.  I’ve been trying to get around in Tampa.  Since the city is so big, I usually have somewhere new to go, even if it involves just walking around, passing the river.

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For all my North Easterners, go down town, farmer’s markets, parks, NYC!!!  Ugh, what I would give to go to my local downtown or walk around the city for a couple of hours.  Crazy, you really do take things for granted that were once so accessible to you.  I really believe you can make the best of what’s around you now.

Warning: Beautiful weather may cause the urge to have too much fun.

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I feel as if this part is more for the summer or leading up to that amazing season.  Here in Florida, it already is beach and pool weather.  Sorry I’m not sorry.  The downfall of having heat so soon.  Damn, your girl did not have enough time to get bikini ready!  As of now, I am balancing the angel inside of me that is say, “Get your green juice on and coconut water.”  But, then I have this dormant party girl saying “Girrrlll, time for mojitos!!”  Do we see the dilemma?

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Although, I have no problem balancing the two.  Love a good green smoothie and a nice summer drank.  Ok, I’m going to stop writing how I talk.  If you know me, this is real talk.

Between eating a bit lighter, more sweat, and more social event, I guarantee your energy will go up and the pounds will gently come off.

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Part 2:  Transformation within the Universe

I chose to write this post now, because as of late I’ve become extremely into the stars.  I can’t help notices the “coincidences”  of what has happened in my life as of late.  From the moment they told me come January, I would be going through a change that will be life altering, to now where the planets have aligned to help me deal with something that has been very difficult for me… Relationships.

This Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse, Blood Moon, will occur early in the morning on Saturday, at least for my Easterners.  The Full Moon gives off nothing more than pure energy.  The moon rules the tides, the waters.  As our body is mostly just that water, we tend to feel this energy, and can be mistaken for the acts of crazy’s that come about during this time.

Libra’s Lunar Eclipse, I’ve read, is about love and compassion.  With a relationship with a loved one that has been a bit estrange and difficult,  to even the intimate ones that have been a bit confusing.  We must move forward, and respond with nothing more than understanding and an open heart.  Even if it’s HARD.  To be honest, writing this helps me realize what I need to do and where I need to direct my energy.

So whilst, you don’t spend too much of your energy on relationships that don’t seem to be all there, focus it on your creativity.  This is the Moon to get into the relationship with yourself, and pick up on something that has been brewing for quite a while.  I know for myself, I’ve been having a hard time with just that as well.  I may not know exactly where I’m heading, I can only try to stay on track on where I believe I want to go, a journey through wellness and adventure.

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Transformation from the inside out….

P.S.  Sometimes a smile, even when your upset, helps the cause.  Dress how you want to feel, that helps as well.  Even when going through what may feel like the toughest time, put on some lipstick or get a fresh cut, and get the fuck out there!!

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Whole Foods Favorites

Hey heyy!

Well it is finally here! Spring!!  This Friday will mark the start of a new season, new moon, solar eclipse, and end to the Zodiac Year.  How’s all that for a Friday?  I will most definitely be celebrating ;)

So around this time, it is most popular to talk about slimming down, detoxes, and change of diet.  All very interesting (some of my favorite things to talk about), but I thought we try something new.  I would like to talk about where, how, and why I shop at my favorite store for my favorite buys

Whole Foods Favorites!

These are things I buy as part of my everyday essentials.  When I splurge, where I save, and how it’s actually possible to get yourself a cabinet/fridge/home full of amazing products.

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1. Local Fruits and Vegetables.  I know it depends mostly on the time of year and where you live for this to happen, but I’m almost positive I stress it every chance I get.  If you live in the northern part, summer farmers markets are the way to go.  Here in Florida, I noticed quickly the abundance of local vegetables in January!  To say I was excited is an understatement.  Until I find a farmers market in the area, I will continue to shop for more local and pick and choose when to be organic.  Local is usually cheaper, tastier, and always in season.  If it isn’t organic, it’s ok!  Tomatoes and apples are my go-to organics, if not I know that most likely less pesticides and travel time were used before they ended up in the shelves.  This equals yummier and healthier produce!

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2. Coconut Oil.  Whether Whole Foods brand or larger named brand, you can usually get a good deal on a jar of coconut oil.  I love organic and fair trade, so Dr. Bronners is my go-to.  I buy a big jar, usually whenever it is on sale because I go through it so fast!  Especially now in a more tropical setting, coconut oil is actually one of the more cooling oils to use for warmer months.  From make up remover, moisturizer, DIY deodorants, and mouth wash, I dare say one day I may have the guts to drink this stuff.  Buy in bulk and distribute how you like!

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3. Apple Cider Vinegar.  Yes, because of so many reasons.  Benefits are endless and real.  Buy in bulk and wait for that sale!  So worth it!  So cheap and will last you depend on how much you take advantage of this stuff.  My love for ACV goes into my morning cup of lemon water, EVERYDAY.  As a way to keep your skin and gut happy, it may also be use as a toner and hair shine.  If you tried for anything else, please share!

4. Nut butters.  Whole Foods always has a sale. Whole Foods always has an amazing selection.  Try them out.  Really,  all are beneficial and tasty in there own way.  I’m all about having fun with food.  This is the perfect way.  From traditional, to chocolaty, to cinnamon raisin, you can keep it as healthy or naughty as you like ;)  Whoops!  I’ve enjoyed mine in oatmeal and smoothies, on toast, or straight out of the jar!  Healthy fats and protein any way you like.

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4. Toothpaste.  Natural toothpaste is the way to go for me.  I go to Whole Foods for the wide selection, which allows me to pick and choose.  Even though I have my favorite brand Auromere, sometimes if others are on sale, I experiment.  Why not?  This allows you to figure out which works best for you!  And going to a larger supermarket allows for more customized preferences, while trying to stay on YOUR budget.  Why natural though?  Less chemicals and ingredients I don’t understand.  This helps your sensitive gums, strengthen teeth, and keep both you and the environment healthy as well.

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5. Pasture-raised or local eggs.  I’m not fully convinced with organic.  I’m more of a “want my chickens to be eating grass and worms all day-everyday.”  Chickens are actually meant to eat insects and feed off of other animals (poop) and grass.  Organic usually means vegetarian-fed and which is still great considering less pesticides and antibiotics.  Although Whole Foods gives me the selection I crave, so I may make my own decisions on how I like my eggs.  I’ve noticed that most New Jersey Whole Foods have local eggs, here in Florida not so much.

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These are just everyday and weekly favorites of mine.  Of course, there is so much more I love to buy and try, but I thought I keep with the basic necessities.  You have your veggies, protein, and edible healthy beauty products ;)  I think it’s the perfect time to really get to know your grocery stores, health food stores, and farmers markets.  These items and brands will not only help you transition into a healthier new season, but an overall healthier new way of living.

If you would like to know a little more about certain items, please let me know.  If you are fortunate to live by a major health food store (like myself) check out there products and prices!  I find some stuff to be cheaper and if you are one to get overwhelmed with a lot of choices, definitely check those out.  It’s a great way to try and talk with the workers too, as it’s usually a more intimate setting.

Remember, it’s not easy, especially in our culture, to spend good money on good food.  Choose your priorities.  Choose them wisely and humbly.

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February Favorites

 

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I really hope it’s not too late for this post. I wanna share with you my moments of last month!  Pictures coupled with thoughts and words, a little something for those staying in during the snow, and those relaxing on the beach.  It’s Friday and one of my favorite things to still do is either enjoy a day productive day of yoga and work, or simply just more relaxing.  It’s a cloudy morning here, so it feels fit to drink my 2nd cup of coffee and share!

 

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So, I’m back with the love of my life.  Really, it was just a little difficult to make the quality time ;)  I started my yoga practice again at a new studio.  It’s different, new, and refreshing.  After being absolutely in love with my previous one, I can pick at all the comparisons, but I’ll just leave it at I am glad to be back at it!  I’m not going to lie, it’s a total different experience to practice as a group and with a teacher, one that I need to either remind me or push me to be true to myself.  That’s the thing about yoga and yogis, we kinda care about what YOU need.

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I’ve been an avocado addict.  I mean, it could be worse.  But, I can never get enough.  Break, lunch, and dinner, it makes an appearance.  Give me 2 a week of those beautiful Florida avocados, or I’ll take 6 of the Mexican aguacate cuties.  They honestly keep me full and satisfied.  And in the process, I’m getting amazing fats, fiber, protein, and vitamins.  Did I mention they taste A-mazing!  Next to try is in my smoothies! As soon as I get a blender….

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Another thing I’ve been consuming as of late.  Yogurt.  My stomach does well with it.  It’s yummy.  And if you get the grass-fed, sustainable, organic kind (don’t be intimidated, you don’t need every word I said) you may get ultimate nutrition of calcium and probiotics.  And yes, there are those thing in plant-based items, but, I like yogurt…

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Can we pretend I’m going to try and cook a little more.  It’s been kind of hard.  You see when you live with a grandma who is home and loves to feed people, there is just no such thing as cooking for one.  Breakfast and little lunches I can get away with.  My main meal that keeps me full for the day, can be difficult.  But sometimes, I can sneak in a quick meal after work with the excuse, “I just want a little something…”

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I haven’t started yet though!  Whole Foods across the street does a good job of keeping me fed with different yummies. It’s convenient, fast, and healthy.  Seriously though, it still is cheaper than going out.  And lately, I really haven’t eaten out and truly enjoyed myself.  I’m sorry.  I’ll take my homemade rice and beans with a fried egg or Whole Foods Market takeout everyday and be happy.  It works out though when your on a budget and don’t feel the need to eat out as “something to do.”

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There has also been a good mix of work and family time.  I could talk about work, but for now, it’s just work.  But I will talk about my amazing family and friends.  From the one’s here and the one’s back home, it’s always an amazing time to catch up.  Always an understatement to say I miss my Jersey familia. The friends I have there too are like my family and they definitely been here with me as well.  But, I will say, I love what I have here too.  From those amazing people I met, to my family that I can depend on here.  Always an amazing time.

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So, that’s been what’s been going on so far.  There are a few posts lined up for you all.  I’m down for more frequent posts if you are.  I love nothing more than to share.  I think I may have finally started adjusting here in Florida.  I’m not going to lie, I almost wish I could be part of that beautiful snow that is going on up north, but then I get to drive with the windows down and sun out, and I think that’s alright too.

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Trying to keep my beliefs and dreams alive, in a world where I think it’s sometimes hard for us to share.  Here’s to the magic that keeps us young and the destiny that keeps us going.

 

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Adapting

Good morning, beautiful people!

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So, I’m here for a little bit of updates or maybe just to write.  It’s Saturday morning and a long weekend for myself. You know I’m a picture freak, so it’s also just a way to entertain your eyes as well.  This post has many reasonings!  Gosh, I love it when that happens.

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I mostly came to talk about a different topic.  Not so much about healthy food and exercising.  But adaptation into a new environment, mostly as a young working adult saving up to move out and follow her dreams.  I think many people can relate to the being and desires, but what happens when you throw yourself into a new place as well.

I told myself this would be good for me.  And everyone seem to think the same too.   While most of my friends went a way to school, traveled, and loved it.  I thought, now this is my time.  I’m a bit of a late bloomer, but when you don’t have a deadline, who’s counting anyways?

 

 

Here’s two big differences though.  1.  I’m not away at school with many other people in the same situation as myself.  2.  I’m very shy, introverted, and need a lot of time to start friendships.

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For myself, I have had the same friends since elementary and high school.  My college experience was more of a let’s-get-the-hell-out part of my life, but I was fortunate enough to start and maintain amazing bonds with some of the people I worked with.  Yet, I have noticed many of the people I work with now are in many different situations, ranging from marriage to school.  How do you bond as the oldest, single, new girl?  I was upset for a while, that I left the family and friends I was closest too.  But, here is what I realized with the help of my family, friends, and words… Compassion and Connection.

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That’s all it’s about.  Find compassion for who the people are and what they do.  It’s something I well forgot about it, which is kind of sad since that is literally engraved on my body.  I am coming to really appreciate who people really are.  They might have different lives, different ways of living, and different backgrounds, but you know what?  We laugh and have fun all the same.

 

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I’m in love with the different culture that surrounds with me.  It’s funny, because it’s kind of my own.  I am a hispanic woman with strong family values, and when we get together it’s a loud fun affair.  Being at work, sometimes feels like home.  That was the connection I failed to see, or rather took time.  Even if we all have our own lives, we take the time we have together and make it worth it.  Hardworking, helpful, and with a joke here and there.  It may not be friendships, but a yogi (yes, I still consider myself one) always sees how we are all connected, even if we need reminding.

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I may or may not make lasting friendships and it may take time for me to get used the environment and community here, but it’s only been one month!  I haven’t even bee able to do half the things I love!!! Beach and yoga, duh.  I’ve noticed keeping your mind focused on the things you love and open to the possibilities around you, leaves you feeling ok with the situation you are in now.  Take longs drives to your favorite places.  I took a longer drive to a different mall yesterday, which was just like the Jersey malls I grew up around and in, and even more beautiful!  I got to take time and walk around and converse with people in my favorite grocery store.  When away you appreciate and connections you may make.  From talking about being from the same area, to small talk about amazing cookies and good hair.  Seriously, it makes my day.

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So there is my ramble, my weakness and strengths combined in one.  What was your new experience??? How did you find it easier to adapt and connect with others? Did you put yourself out there right away? I’m more of a, let’s just see what evolves, kind of person, but given circumstances, maybe I can try and break out of my shell to see something new.

Till next time!

 

yesenia

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