Embracing a Transformational Season

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So Spring is officially here.  I know there has been a mix of weather going on.  Here in the Sunshine State? Well let’s just say I got a bit of a Summer glow already ;)  I know the cold, and even snow, is around for some people, but now is the perfect time to recognize and embrace the small changes!  Longer days, prettier sunsets, and a little more green to come.

I wanted to try and incorporate a post about how to embrace spring in a more holistic healthy view and realistic bad-ass-self way.  So let’s try and do this, shall we?

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Now here is Florida, I must admit it has been Spring for the last month, borderline summer.  I am not complaining, but rather embraced it with open arms.  First and foremost, I definitely been eating way more salads and fresh veggies.  With local fruits and vegetables always in stock from the warmer season, their is really no excuse not to get the most of optimum nutrition from your meals.  In season for your environment is key to staying healthy during the year.  Your body wants the food the earth has naturally provided!

During spring the foods are lighter.  We are talking greens to help detox your body of winters extras still in the system.  How to do it?  Add more juices to your regimen.  You don’t need to go into full detox mode, but rather slowly, your body can get into a transformation on it’s own.  So, not just juices, but fresh greens, even chopped vegetable salads to get the full hydration and nutrition your body deserves going into the warmer months.

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Get active and get out there!!!

Not only will this help your body transformation, but your mind as well.  Join a gym.  Go practice yoga.  Go walking/running.  Make an effort to start your own exercise routine.  To be honest, this is something that I fell back on.  I am more of a foodie than a fitness person.  But I am allowing a little extra and time (and money) to the cause.  Our body needs the sweat to cleanse and get our systems moving again.  Going out and do that gives us that motivation.  What better motivation then seeing others wanting to kick some ass and fat too!

 

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Now, when I say get out there, I say that because usually the winter months gives us the perfect excuse to stay home more, eat a little hardier, and just get cozy with close family and friends.  I’ve been using this gorgeous weather in Florida to never stay home.  Semi amazing- semi dangerous.  But, moving on.  I love the fact that I can explore this state with the advantage of amazing weather.  I’ve been trying to get around in Tampa.  Since the city is so big, I usually have somewhere new to go, even if it involves just walking around, passing the river.

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For all my North Easterners, go down town, farmer’s markets, parks, NYC!!!  Ugh, what I would give to go to my local downtown or walk around the city for a couple of hours.  Crazy, you really do take things for granted that were once so accessible to you.  I really believe you can make the best of what’s around you now.

Warning: Beautiful weather may cause the urge to have too much fun.

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I feel as if this part is more for the summer or leading up to that amazing season.  Here in Florida, it already is beach and pool weather.  Sorry I’m not sorry.  The downfall of having heat so soon.  Damn, your girl did not have enough time to get bikini ready!  As of now, I am balancing the angel inside of me that is say, “Get your green juice on and coconut water.”  But, then I have this dormant party girl saying “Girrrlll, time for mojitos!!”  Do we see the dilemma?

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Although, I have no problem balancing the two.  Love a good green smoothie and a nice summer drank.  Ok, I’m going to stop writing how I talk.  If you know me, this is real talk.

Between eating a bit lighter, more sweat, and more social event, I guarantee your energy will go up and the pounds will gently come off.

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Part 2:  Transformation within the Universe

I chose to write this post now, because as of late I’ve become extremely into the stars.  I can’t help notices the “coincidences”  of what has happened in my life as of late.  From the moment they told me come January, I would be going through a change that will be life altering, to now where the planets have aligned to help me deal with something that has been very difficult for me… Relationships.

This Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse, Blood Moon, will occur early in the morning on Saturday, at least for my Easterners.  The Full Moon gives off nothing more than pure energy.  The moon rules the tides, the waters.  As our body is mostly just that water, we tend to feel this energy, and can be mistaken for the acts of crazy’s that come about during this time.

Libra’s Lunar Eclipse, I’ve read, is about love and compassion.  With a relationship with a loved one that has been a bit estrange and difficult,  to even the intimate ones that have been a bit confusing.  We must move forward, and respond with nothing more than understanding and an open heart.  Even if it’s HARD.  To be honest, writing this helps me realize what I need to do and where I need to direct my energy.

So whilst, you don’t spend too much of your energy on relationships that don’t seem to be all there, focus it on your creativity.  This is the Moon to get into the relationship with yourself, and pick up on something that has been brewing for quite a while.  I know for myself, I’ve been having a hard time with just that as well.  I may not know exactly where I’m heading, I can only try to stay on track on where I believe I want to go, a journey through wellness and adventure.

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Transformation from the inside out….

P.S.  Sometimes a smile, even when your upset, helps the cause.  Dress how you want to feel, that helps as well.  Even when going through what may feel like the toughest time, put on some lipstick or get a fresh cut, and get the fuck out there!!

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Whole Foods Favorites

Hey heyy!

Well it is finally here! Spring!!  This Friday will mark the start of a new season, new moon, solar eclipse, and end to the Zodiac Year.  How’s all that for a Friday?  I will most definitely be celebrating ;)

So around this time, it is most popular to talk about slimming down, detoxes, and change of diet.  All very interesting (some of my favorite things to talk about), but I thought we try something new.  I would like to talk about where, how, and why I shop at my favorite store for my favorite buys

Whole Foods Favorites!

These are things I buy as part of my everyday essentials.  When I splurge, where I save, and how it’s actually possible to get yourself a cabinet/fridge/home full of amazing products.

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1. Local Fruits and Vegetables.  I know it depends mostly on the time of year and where you live for this to happen, but I’m almost positive I stress it every chance I get.  If you live in the northern part, summer farmers markets are the way to go.  Here in Florida, I noticed quickly the abundance of local vegetables in January!  To say I was excited is an understatement.  Until I find a farmers market in the area, I will continue to shop for more local and pick and choose when to be organic.  Local is usually cheaper, tastier, and always in season.  If it isn’t organic, it’s ok!  Tomatoes and apples are my go-to organics, if not I know that most likely less pesticides and travel time were used before they ended up in the shelves.  This equals yummier and healthier produce!

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2. Coconut Oil.  Whether Whole Foods brand or larger named brand, you can usually get a good deal on a jar of coconut oil.  I love organic and fair trade, so Dr. Bronners is my go-to.  I buy a big jar, usually whenever it is on sale because I go through it so fast!  Especially now in a more tropical setting, coconut oil is actually one of the more cooling oils to use for warmer months.  From make up remover, moisturizer, DIY deodorants, and mouth wash, I dare say one day I may have the guts to drink this stuff.  Buy in bulk and distribute how you like!

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3. Apple Cider Vinegar.  Yes, because of so many reasons.  Benefits are endless and real.  Buy in bulk and wait for that sale!  So worth it!  So cheap and will last you depend on how much you take advantage of this stuff.  My love for ACV goes into my morning cup of lemon water, EVERYDAY.  As a way to keep your skin and gut happy, it may also be use as a toner and hair shine.  If you tried for anything else, please share!

4. Nut butters.  Whole Foods always has a sale. Whole Foods always has an amazing selection.  Try them out.  Really,  all are beneficial and tasty in there own way.  I’m all about having fun with food.  This is the perfect way.  From traditional, to chocolaty, to cinnamon raisin, you can keep it as healthy or naughty as you like ;)  Whoops!  I’ve enjoyed mine in oatmeal and smoothies, on toast, or straight out of the jar!  Healthy fats and protein any way you like.

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4. Toothpaste.  Natural toothpaste is the way to go for me.  I go to Whole Foods for the wide selection, which allows me to pick and choose.  Even though I have my favorite brand Auromere, sometimes if others are on sale, I experiment.  Why not?  This allows you to figure out which works best for you!  And going to a larger supermarket allows for more customized preferences, while trying to stay on YOUR budget.  Why natural though?  Less chemicals and ingredients I don’t understand.  This helps your sensitive gums, strengthen teeth, and keep both you and the environment healthy as well.

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5. Pasture-raised or local eggs.  I’m not fully convinced with organic.  I’m more of a “want my chickens to be eating grass and worms all day-everyday.”  Chickens are actually meant to eat insects and feed off of other animals (poop) and grass.  Organic usually means vegetarian-fed and which is still great considering less pesticides and antibiotics.  Although Whole Foods gives me the selection I crave, so I may make my own decisions on how I like my eggs.  I’ve noticed that most New Jersey Whole Foods have local eggs, here in Florida not so much.

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These are just everyday and weekly favorites of mine.  Of course, there is so much more I love to buy and try, but I thought I keep with the basic necessities.  You have your veggies, protein, and edible healthy beauty products ;)  I think it’s the perfect time to really get to know your grocery stores, health food stores, and farmers markets.  These items and brands will not only help you transition into a healthier new season, but an overall healthier new way of living.

If you would like to know a little more about certain items, please let me know.  If you are fortunate to live by a major health food store (like myself) check out there products and prices!  I find some stuff to be cheaper and if you are one to get overwhelmed with a lot of choices, definitely check those out.  It’s a great way to try and talk with the workers too, as it’s usually a more intimate setting.

Remember, it’s not easy, especially in our culture, to spend good money on good food.  Choose your priorities.  Choose them wisely and humbly.

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February Favorites

 

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I really hope it’s not too late for this post. I wanna share with you my moments of last month!  Pictures coupled with thoughts and words, a little something for those staying in during the snow, and those relaxing on the beach.  It’s Friday and one of my favorite things to still do is either enjoy a day productive day of yoga and work, or simply just more relaxing.  It’s a cloudy morning here, so it feels fit to drink my 2nd cup of coffee and share!

 

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So, I’m back with the love of my life.  Really, it was just a little difficult to make the quality time ;)  I started my yoga practice again at a new studio.  It’s different, new, and refreshing.  After being absolutely in love with my previous one, I can pick at all the comparisons, but I’ll just leave it at I am glad to be back at it!  I’m not going to lie, it’s a total different experience to practice as a group and with a teacher, one that I need to either remind me or push me to be true to myself.  That’s the thing about yoga and yogis, we kinda care about what YOU need.

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I’ve been an avocado addict.  I mean, it could be worse.  But, I can never get enough.  Break, lunch, and dinner, it makes an appearance.  Give me 2 a week of those beautiful Florida avocados, or I’ll take 6 of the Mexican aguacate cuties.  They honestly keep me full and satisfied.  And in the process, I’m getting amazing fats, fiber, protein, and vitamins.  Did I mention they taste A-mazing!  Next to try is in my smoothies! As soon as I get a blender….

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Another thing I’ve been consuming as of late.  Yogurt.  My stomach does well with it.  It’s yummy.  And if you get the grass-fed, sustainable, organic kind (don’t be intimidated, you don’t need every word I said) you may get ultimate nutrition of calcium and probiotics.  And yes, there are those thing in plant-based items, but, I like yogurt…

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Can we pretend I’m going to try and cook a little more.  It’s been kind of hard.  You see when you live with a grandma who is home and loves to feed people, there is just no such thing as cooking for one.  Breakfast and little lunches I can get away with.  My main meal that keeps me full for the day, can be difficult.  But sometimes, I can sneak in a quick meal after work with the excuse, “I just want a little something…”

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I haven’t started yet though!  Whole Foods across the street does a good job of keeping me fed with different yummies. It’s convenient, fast, and healthy.  Seriously though, it still is cheaper than going out.  And lately, I really haven’t eaten out and truly enjoyed myself.  I’m sorry.  I’ll take my homemade rice and beans with a fried egg or Whole Foods Market takeout everyday and be happy.  It works out though when your on a budget and don’t feel the need to eat out as “something to do.”

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There has also been a good mix of work and family time.  I could talk about work, but for now, it’s just work.  But I will talk about my amazing family and friends.  From the one’s here and the one’s back home, it’s always an amazing time to catch up.  Always an understatement to say I miss my Jersey familia. The friends I have there too are like my family and they definitely been here with me as well.  But, I will say, I love what I have here too.  From those amazing people I met, to my family that I can depend on here.  Always an amazing time.

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So, that’s been what’s been going on so far.  There are a few posts lined up for you all.  I’m down for more frequent posts if you are.  I love nothing more than to share.  I think I may have finally started adjusting here in Florida.  I’m not going to lie, I almost wish I could be part of that beautiful snow that is going on up north, but then I get to drive with the windows down and sun out, and I think that’s alright too.

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Trying to keep my beliefs and dreams alive, in a world where I think it’s sometimes hard for us to share.  Here’s to the magic that keeps us young and the destiny that keeps us going.

 

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Adapting

Good morning, beautiful people!

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So, I’m here for a little bit of updates or maybe just to write.  It’s Saturday morning and a long weekend for myself. You know I’m a picture freak, so it’s also just a way to entertain your eyes as well.  This post has many reasonings!  Gosh, I love it when that happens.

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I mostly came to talk about a different topic.  Not so much about healthy food and exercising.  But adaptation into a new environment, mostly as a young working adult saving up to move out and follow her dreams.  I think many people can relate to the being and desires, but what happens when you throw yourself into a new place as well.

I told myself this would be good for me.  And everyone seem to think the same too.   While most of my friends went a way to school, traveled, and loved it.  I thought, now this is my time.  I’m a bit of a late bloomer, but when you don’t have a deadline, who’s counting anyways?

 

 

Here’s two big differences though.  1.  I’m not away at school with many other people in the same situation as myself.  2.  I’m very shy, introverted, and need a lot of time to start friendships.

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For myself, I have had the same friends since elementary and high school.  My college experience was more of a let’s-get-the-hell-out part of my life, but I was fortunate enough to start and maintain amazing bonds with some of the people I worked with.  Yet, I have noticed many of the people I work with now are in many different situations, ranging from marriage to school.  How do you bond as the oldest, single, new girl?  I was upset for a while, that I left the family and friends I was closest too.  But, here is what I realized with the help of my family, friends, and words… Compassion and Connection.

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That’s all it’s about.  Find compassion for who the people are and what they do.  It’s something I well forgot about it, which is kind of sad since that is literally engraved on my body.  I am coming to really appreciate who people really are.  They might have different lives, different ways of living, and different backgrounds, but you know what?  We laugh and have fun all the same.

 

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I’m in love with the different culture that surrounds with me.  It’s funny, because it’s kind of my own.  I am a hispanic woman with strong family values, and when we get together it’s a loud fun affair.  Being at work, sometimes feels like home.  That was the connection I failed to see, or rather took time.  Even if we all have our own lives, we take the time we have together and make it worth it.  Hardworking, helpful, and with a joke here and there.  It may not be friendships, but a yogi (yes, I still consider myself one) always sees how we are all connected, even if we need reminding.

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I may or may not make lasting friendships and it may take time for me to get used the environment and community here, but it’s only been one month!  I haven’t even bee able to do half the things I love!!! Beach and yoga, duh.  I’ve noticed keeping your mind focused on the things you love and open to the possibilities around you, leaves you feeling ok with the situation you are in now.  Take longs drives to your favorite places.  I took a longer drive to a different mall yesterday, which was just like the Jersey malls I grew up around and in, and even more beautiful!  I got to take time and walk around and converse with people in my favorite grocery store.  When away you appreciate and connections you may make.  From talking about being from the same area, to small talk about amazing cookies and good hair.  Seriously, it makes my day.

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So there is my ramble, my weakness and strengths combined in one.  What was your new experience??? How did you find it easier to adapt and connect with others? Did you put yourself out there right away? I’m more of a, let’s just see what evolves, kind of person, but given circumstances, maybe I can try and break out of my shell to see something new.

Till next time!

 

yesenia

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The Skinny on Keeping Healthy on a (very) Low Budget

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Straight to the point, no?

I decided to this post, because quite frankly, I’m living it.  Moving takes a tole on everything front the mental and physical aspects, to of course the material financial parts.  It’s a crazy adjustment for myself to get used to, and I think there are plenty of people who are trying to get both themselves and finances put together.

Everyone I believe chooses the lifestyle they live.

That is were this post comes in.  Whether you are new to this healthy living movement, trying to lose weight, or want to feel better about your footsteps among this earth, this post is for you.  Healthy-living gets a bad rap for being too expensive, which I find is one of the top reasons which turn people off.  Well, I’m here to tell you it can be, but I start with this first piece of advice on staying healthy,

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1.  Where are your priorities?  As someone who openly speaks about health and nutrition, I get a lot of people who come to me and say, “Wow, I want to be/eat healthy, but I love cake.” or “I would love to be healthy, but all these healthy things are too expensive.”  Well, my response to both types of remarks is usually “If you want it, you can make it work.”  What is important to you?  Is it your own health?  The health of your family?  I find that people who only want to lose weight tend to lose track a bit more often.  Start with why?  And keep on asking.

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2.  Whole foods become every week staples.  It’s all about the basics.

  •  Whole grains for fiber which keeps your digestion happy and yourself full long.  Brown rice, quinoa, organic pasta, and sprouted whole wheat bread are some of my favorites.
  • Fruits such as bananas, apples, oranges, tomatoes, and avocados, give you an array of vitamins, fiber, and energy to keep you healthy and GLOWING.
  • Greens are a great source of calcium and vitamins D, C, A… etc. to add to your diet.  Kale, chard, romaine, spinach (great source of iron), and broccoli are great to rotate into your meals.  Color vegetables such as carrots, beets, and sweet potatoes are amazing for your health and skin as well.
  • Proteins.  I swear by eggs, yogurt, nut butters, and beans as an everyday staple.  With healthy fats, bacteria, and protein, you can not go wrong with these vegetarian staples.  They are cheap and affordable, even the pastured raised organic versions!
  • Limit red meat and cheese.  I try to buy one kind of cheese a week.  It may be cheddar slices for a sandwich or crumbled cheese for salads or fancy egg breakfasts.  Red meat can get expensive.  I ask that when you do buy meat, please, please, make it grass fed and organic.  Not only is it more nutritious, but you learn to really appreciate the life on your table and therefore don’t abuse the power of energy, the life of the animal GAVE to you.  Yes.  I went there.  The occasional wild caught salmon is a big thumbs up as well.

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3.  Buy a whole chicken!  Not only are you saving money buy avoiding the precut, skinned parts of the animal, but you are gaining a whole lot of nutrition.  I love it when you can just roast a chicken and can become a meal for a family, or made for different days of the week.  My family may have had some for dinner, and then they would take a part the rest for toppings on salad or a chicken salad.  It’s a rewarding and cheap way to bring a more sustainable way of everyday meat into your diet.

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4.  Treat yourself to a different superfood every week.  Almost how we like to have the Friday night drink or buy ourselves a new pair of well deserved heels, treat your body to something amazing as well!  Cupboard basics such as coconut oil(antibacterial), apple cider vinegar(alkalizer), flax and chia seeds(omega 3 and fiber), etc… are items that last and definitely have amazing nutritional benefits!  You don’t have to spend a fortunate your first grocery trip!  Little by little your kitchen will be filled with healthy delicious items and condiments.  Splurge on an organic green juice or a a couple kombuchas (probiotics), which by the way, can sometimes cost less than two Starbucks lattes… ouch!

5.  Keep active.  Whether you have an active job or an active exercise routine, that’s all you need.  To be honest, I’m not a very athletic person.  But my job is on my feet, running around sometimes to get stuff done.  I don’t like to be sitting down bored pretending to work.  If you do have a job where you sit, make sure to do a run before work or a walk in the evening.  I know for most the weather is COLD now.  Best thing to do?  Stretches and movement in the morning are your best bet if you don’t go out for exercise.  Seriously, the skinny is you don’t have to spend crazy money with excise.  Abs are made 70% in the kitchen, 30% in the gym ;)

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For me, I live a healthy lifestyle for how it makes me feel good inside and out.  When I feel good about myself, I can do my best and be a better person.  I want to smile at people.  I want to try and make other’s feel good and smile too.  I want to show people you don’t have to be a skinny rich model to feel and look amazing.

We are all people with different means and beliefs, and if you read this, than I assume you might have some sort of belief in healthy living.  These are just a few of my tips on staying healthy and fit.  What are yours?  You don’t have to start doing all of these, but maybe may try something new.  Share or think it through!  How can you make a healthy lifestyle with what you already have?

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PS.  Keep it organic if possible.  No greed or gluttony.  Always choose avocados.  Pure enjoyment always.

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Tampa Bae

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Cheesy title?  Clever title?  Well, I thoroughly enjoy it.  I’m a sucker for silly “pun intended” use of words.  Ya’ dig?

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IMG_7520January 6, 2015. New Jersey.

Anywayssss, so I don’t know if I ever posted on my blog, but I am a born and bred Jersey girl.  I have dealt with beautiful, hot, and humid summers, that come with a side of Jersey Shore dirty water and boardwalks.  And more recently, very cold, snowy winters, which I think now appealed to my younger years of snow days.   I hadn’t realize till now, what a love-hate relationship I had with New Jersey.  If my title hadn’t gave it away, I now reside in the Sunshine State, Florida. More specifically, the ever so growing and moving, suburban-city of Tampa.

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IMG_7559January 9, 2015. Tampa, Florida.

So how does it feel?

Honestly? Bittersweet.

I always said I would be happier in warmer weather.  To be able to hang out outside, not have to worry about layers of clothing, boots, and snow to shovel (even though I never shovel).  I’m a sucker for local produce, raw fruits and veggies, and minimal clothing as possible.  I like to spend money on $5 dollar tshirts, more than $40 dollar sweaters.  Can we talk about the local Florida avocados?

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 I’ve been exploring the area a bit more.  Thankful to have a super helpful uncle to inform and show us around.  I like to take frequent trips to different grocery stores.  I have a Whole Foods Market, Walmart, Publix, and local health food store one minute from each other.  Literally.  It’s a pretty busy and crowded area, with every store and chain imaginable around the corner on a main highway.  I wouldn’t say I love it, but I don’t hate it.  It’s convenient and a nice excuse to take an easy ride.

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So with beautiful weather, local produce, and city vibe, what may be the downfall? Well, the people that aren’t here with me.  I swore I needed the change, I needed something to shake me.  And boy, did Florida shake the fuck out of me.   I believe the stars had forewarned me, as the universe created it.  I never once been away from home for more than a week.  And usually while I was gone, I was surround by family or friends.  I’ve always been a more shy and reserved person when in a new environment.  It’s not till I become comfortable are you privilege to see my crazy, loud, smart-mouthing side ;)

I now wish I can  enjoy this weather and change with everyone I care about.  On one hand, who I know I can count on is here with me. We help each other and can count on each other for a lot, and I really value that right now.  But, girlfriend time over coffee and wine will be limited.  Family birthdays and special events won’t be as easy.  Phone calls, must replace the human interaction I find incredibly special and important.  Touch and sight.  Is this what you call homesick?

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I tell myself this is the perfect opportunity to do things I always found harder to do while in Jersey.  With less people around I can focus most of my time with work and activities.  Full-time work and this thing called healthy living as my side hustle.  I can blog now all day and talk about my new experiences and informations with y’all.  I’m excited for what’s to come with this.

You know that quote, “money can’t buy happiness,”?  I’ve never believed so much in the money, even though now, I am trying to do this crazy hard thing called saving.  #adultthangs.  Right now, I’m banking on the Vitamin D to bring me some happiness.  C’mon sun! Warm my soul and give me a tan already!

Will you stick around and see what’s good with Tampa Bay?  Family and friends, if you can’t be here with me, then read along with me.  I always said I wanted to travel and explore something new.  Well I got what I ask for, and hopefully this is just my first stop.

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So here is to change, Florida avocados, humidity, positive vibes, and day dreams.

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Namaste,

yesenia

Heart out. Power within. {Uncensored. Unedited}

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You know those moments or times when you can’t catch a break?

Something great might come up, new opportunities and possibilities, new friends and loves that come through.  It’s uplifting.  Motivating and inspiring for many.  You yourself become inspired by your own actions and story.

Then all of a sudden, or slowly and steady, things change.  Maybe, you find that amazing job not to be what you expected.  You feel let down by possibilities that you know are gone.  Life becomes not only hard, but confusing once more.  Why?

I figured out a couple of reasons:

1.  What’s meant to be, will be.  The universe is good and frustrating like that.  Life happens. Shit happens.  And it’s always for a reason.

2.  You learn to love no matter what.

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That one is my personal struggle.  We become sad.  We feel a sense of hopelessness and loneliness.  Does anyone really get it?  How much we believe in ourselves and others? Only to be let down?  How is that fair?!  Just like that we become angry and spiteful.  I don’t know about you, but I literally start to say, “Fuck You! I will become amazing!  Beautiful and successful! And I won’t need you, or this job, or this money to make it happen!”

Then, I remember my past.  Then, I remember yoga.  Then, I repeat my beliefs.

My past reminds me being that bitch didn’t help to become happier or successful.  Shutting myself out from the world didn’t make me a better person.  What happened, happened for a reason, and for that I am grateful.  But, I know that’s where I should leave it.

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My yoga practice has been my rock.  It teaches me to breath.  That’s number one.  It gives me something other than money, family, men, and other nonsense to focus on.  Yoga reminds me of my beliefs.

My beliefs to find the good in others, including the hardest person, myself.  This world is amazing.  I am amazing.  Dreams do come true.  Love comes for an hour or a lifetime.  I am never alone because there is someone who loves me,..  parents, siblings, dog, a child.  We are human with basic needs.  And we all strive for the same thing, happiness.  The connection that brings us all together.  Which is once again yoga, the union. Which is the universe, and it has a plan for us.

I’m learning as best I can (I want to say fast and gracefully, but that would be a lie) that it will come back together.  Life goes on.  And how amazing to say that I am 25 years old, and as long as I don’t die tomorrow, I have my whole life to do what I love, be with who I love, and change the world, or just one life.

How will that happen?  I hate saying it.  It’s much easier for me to type that actually do, because it’s ACTION.  It’s the hunger and hustle.  What I needed and got over and over was tough love.  I hated it, and sometimes I still do.  But, now I am oh so grateful for it.  I made several changes over the last couple months, and did somethings that I know would have never crossed my mind only three months back.

One of them was give up my practice.  And, I think that’s the tough love I need back in my life.  Because I know now, it will speak to me differently, or at least I hope.  I want that discipline back.  The one that would make time for something that was good for me.  I want to kick my own ass in a new way now.  Not with deprivation, but with nourishment.  I didn’t take this break as a failure, but a reminder.  I am allowed to love how I want to love.  I love my practice with ease and perseverance.  Even though, I wasn’t able to do it by myself, I will gladly take the guidance from those who are there to teach.

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So let’s just remember.  To each there own, but I do hope yours is filled with the love and faith everyone deserves to have.

Like a warrior.  Heart out, power within.

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